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Dreams, future, goals, Happiness, soul searching, Turning 40
Recently, I have done a lot of soul-searching about my life, what I am doing, what I am not doing, where I am going, if I should be going anywhere or just be happy where I am and I haven’t come up with any clear answers. I have asked myself over and over; what do you want to be doing? What makes you happy?
And I am freaked out by the simple fact that I can’t answer those questions. What the hell is wrong with me? I know that I shouldn’t just be happy where I am; if the result is that I am not happy where I am. Right? But what then? Where do I go from here? I am a wife and a mother and I love those roles, but since I have to work I need that area to be fulfilling as well.
I am going to be 40 this year and if I have to work for at least another 20 years, I need to figure out what I want to do with the next 20 years of my life? Right? Sadly, I don’t know where to begin to figure that out. But here are the things I do know:
- I am a very capable dependable person
- I love researching and investigating and I am really good at both
- I am a take charge kind of person and I get things done – FAST!!
- I am enthusiastic about life and have a good attitude…..and it shows
- I have a silly and fun side that can be very entertaining
- I enjoy staying busy and want to feel needed
- I get immense satisfaction from helping others and making their day a bit easier or nicer
- It’s important for me to feel valued
- I enjoy being creative
- I love cooking and baking
I am not sure what putting these thoughts out there will do for me, but I feel such a heavy burden lately. I try to sooth the burden with normal everyday life things such as, running, mindless entertainment, crocheting, but it is always there nagging me. I know I have a very fortunate life in many ways. I have a very loving & supportive husband and a healthy & happy son and I love them both. I know that I have it good, but for my personal satisfaction; I feel as though I am missing the mark.
Or perhaps, I have too much time on my hands. LOL!
Great post!! The first step is always figuring out what yo really want. Hopefully your list will set you in the right direction.
Thanks! I am glad you found me. I like your list too. It is very inspiring.
I love this post! I love that you took the time to think about all the great things about you! They are all very true…. like I always say – you are very PASSIONATE about things.. you are very creative, a thinker, always have your gears turning. I like it.